About Polarity and Non-Duality

***For a while already I've been going back and forth between feeling masculine, feminine, all of it (or none)...

I've had periods where I've felt deeply gorgeous and sparkling wild wearing heels and shiny dresses. Trusting the pulse of my sexual expression and receptivity to bring healing and power to myself and others. I've had periods where my sexy inner Dom sets the scene for the grace of my wisdom and careful holding of my own and other's transformation to come through.

***For a while already I've been going back and forth between loving women, loving men, loving all of it (or none)...

I had periods where, in diving deep in the receptive polarity with men, my sexual ecstasy brought me to unseen delight and deep connection with the otherworldly realms. I've had periods where I was the one providing containment as I admired the wild snake of Eros in my femme lovers soar in my incisive embrace.

***For a while already I've been going back and forth between surrendering to life and guiding/directing life...

I had times where I lived in the forest or even the urban jungle with almost no money, totally able to do everything my heart desired. In deep surrender to the moment and the guidance of life. I've had times that brought me lots of gorgeous opportunities that I acted on powerfully and worked hard to create the dreams I was calling in from a directive space.

***For a while already I've found myself embracing and moving with all of the polarities...

And it's been fucking hard. Continually, over and over again, whoever I think I am eventually gets divinely obliterated, to only become another part of how life can act through me, and what I can draw on during this short time of Shadi in this human body here on Earth.

But the learnings stay, the learnings are never lost.

So many of my learnings in becoming a shape shifter, and therefore a more available channel for what Spirit wants to bring through me to this planet, have come through ritual scene play.

I'd like to bring some awareness to how incredibly potent it can be to set a scene to support us in finding and integrating hurt or forgotten parts of ourselves.

There's so much stigma around BDSM (me just already having to write it that like that proves the point) and I found my own way through the vast and wild arena of it by simply following my heart and desires. It involved a lot of falling and getting up again, using the tools I'd been given, getting hurt and then inspired again, and continually becoming a better learner... But now looking back I can see clearly that I was being guided to understand how powerful a practice ritual scene play is.

You may be familiar with psychodrama as a healing or transformational tool. I personally feel like this kind of practice has tremendously helped me become a more integrated person and it's brought me gorgeous moments of healing and remembering.

But what happens when the sexual wounds, desires, fears and expressions come in? Plenty of spaces offer therapeutic or transformational work that may somehow touch on these wounds but then actually also consider them too tricky or a no-go area.

Because of my deep dive within the tantric, spiritual, sexual and shamanic realms over the past 10 years, and the embodiment and healing practices it's provided me, I've found a powerful permission slip to journey into the realms of ritual scene play (involving the sexual wounds and desires) in my own personal life.

Through this journey I've embraced the fact that I'm kinky, that I'm a switchy witch (although mostly Dominant), genderfluid and pansexual, and basically that it's a natural human quality to shape shift.

Bringing the transformational tools of psychodrama, conscious b:D:s:M, transformational ritual and sacred sexuality together has proven to provide an amazing array of possibilities for deep healing and pleasure, finding a deep sense of purpose in life, and integration of soo many precious parts of the personal and transpersonal self.

Francesca Gentille, Temple Priestess and Kinky Witch, and myself are teaching the 7-day in-person container of deep immersion and embodiment in the Shamanic Kink realm. I'm excited to finally bring together all the alchemical pieces I've learned to be able to support humans of all expressions wanting to dive deep in this realm, and to teach people how to deeply contain others in their journeys of transformation, healing and play.

This training is open to anyone who already has some experience (at least 6 months) in kink/BDSM. The training is designed to help you to truly 'get' how vast this arena and its possibilities are, and to journey in it masterfully and with a certain degree of ease and a solid foundational toolkit to harness the energetics of conscious scene play.

Find out all about our upcoming trainings below.